After almost a decade of uneventfulness of my life I have finally found my new found joy in life. Life has been unkind to me for past decade, it was filled with deceit, hypocrisy, betrayal, denial of the religious life. Finally after leaving the Catholic church I realise how happy I am now, things begin to look up and my life starts improving in terms of career, financial, love with my passion of the arts and music. Liken to a bird that was just released from its canary, I soar the clear blue skies, looking at the world with a bird's eye view... breathing the air that is even different when I was locked up with the idiotic confines of the Catholic church teachings and doctrines. I have not sold my soul to the devil, I just want to be free. However the curse of the vicious cycle of unrequitted love remains. I thought I have outgrown it but it comes back to torment me, at least once a year. I take rejections badly, sometimes to the brink of losing my sanity. I am frightened and started to pen down my grief through gothic poems and proses. As years goes by, the manifestations of my sexuality surfaces more prominently and I am at my wits end in conquering it. I hope I wouldn't be cast into the vicious wheels of unrequitted love as it is always filled with unbearable pain, anguish and bitterness.
As for the question of religion, I prefer to be an athenist because inter-religion leads to conflicts of interests which eventually destroys relationships. I am what I am, I want to be myself and not be confine to anything. I believe in what my conscience lies in which I feel it is more than sufficient to lead an honest life.
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